2009-03-30 - 6:09 p.m.
Jack Contemplates Love And The Internet (2)
Continued from the entry before
Suddenly, I am feeling so much that I can't say anything.
But this sort of internal bleeding means something is really important.
You are being reminded of something you could never forget.
Something you loved. Something that is gone.
Something that is over.
I wish it never had to end.
I wish that somehow I could have spent the rest of my life in it.
There.
There, with you and you and you. Later, with you and you. Somehow we would have found each other. Chronologically something would bend.
Because somehow, things could not have been more perfect.
I hated my life. I hated the Antagonists. I hated my job even after I lost it. My heart was broken over the alcoholic ex-girlfriend I broke up with. My heart was even more broken for the true love of my life, my crashed car. I had the worst Christmas I have ever had in my entire life. I had a concussion.
For months, every day I lied to my roomate that everything was fine. Even after stealing five minutes out in the car to cry as hard as I could almost every night after work.
I was never more angry at the world in my life.
But something I never could have imagined was waiting for me. And it never could have happened the way it did without all this. I would have been a different person, at a different time in my life. I would have missed everything.
The funny thing is I still miss everything.
Continued...
Jack's Pathetic Terrified Little Extinction - 2009-04-14
Jack Wakes Up To The Sound Of Music Slowly Disappearing From His Head - 2009-04-10
Once Upon A Time In Jack's Wildest Dreams - 2009-03-30
Jack Contemplates Love And The Internet (3) - 2009-03-30
