2008-12-24 - 2:23 p.m.
Jack's Christmas Eve Alone
It is a good feeling.
Sitting here at the computer, in the same clothes I wore yesterday and slept in last night.
Nowhere to go.
No one I have to see.
Just another day.
One more day before tomorrow.
One more day that is mine, before tomorrow.
For years I have wanted this. Hoped for this. Then at the last minute someone would notice that I was going to be alone. Not this time.
This year my landlord had to work today because the company is giving him Friday off instead. By the time he gets home, his sister will be finished with her Christmas party.
This year strangely my roomate has not called wanting to know what I am doing for Christmas. Her parents are coming down. Last time I heard anyway. Her family welcomes me, but unless I am drunk I do not feel that comfortable. I can not drink with my medication.
I am not sure if I should have told her how I feel about social obligations.
I can't really explain how I feel.
I got what I wanted.
But something about it does not seem right. Like suddenly really noticing the sound of silence.
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Jack Begins Another Year - 2009-01-12
Jack's Christmas That Wasn't (2) - 2008-12-24
Jack's Christmas That Wasn't - 2008-12-24
