2006-06-05 - 2:03 p.m.
Tell Us A Story Jack
People always say to me, "Tell me a story. You always have something to say."
As long as I can remember I have been a story teller. My life has played out in a variety of ways. As the narrator, as the character, as more than one character. In roles and allegories.
When I tell people stories, I become the narrator and every other character involved. I talk fast, and put on one hat after another. Costumes change again and again. Back and forth. I am a torrent of words. I become your own personal screen play. If you can keep up with this erratic director's often grandiose vision of absolutely nothing.
I suppose this is something that I have taken for granted.
Because now, I never feel like I have anything to say anymore.
Nothing that I actually could say anyway.
I think about it all the time. Where it all went wrong.
Maybe this is just not something that I need right now. And still I feel a need for it. This time I am not renewing my Gold membership. There is just no need to keep this journal on some sort of perceived life support if it is not even something that I am using. Until I start writing more I am not going to put any more money into this. This should not feel like something I have to do. Another bill I have to pay.
Somehow, I need to work on making this mine again.
It's Only After You've Lost Everything... - 2008-03-12
Jack Is Afraid Of Losing Everything - 2008-03-10
Jack Does Not Know What He Is Living For - 2008-03-07
Jack's Festering Apathy - 2008-03-07
